Letting Go
By Mona, age 17, Philippines
It's our semester break, and I'm back in my hometown. Remember my article about my ex-best friend (SDM, May '08)? Well, I haven't seen him for quite some time. It's been almost six months since I last saw him, and I have to say I kind of miss him. Actually, I miss him terribly. He was a really big part of my life and I can't just forget him as if he never existed.
I've heard news over the months that he has been seeing someone. He text messaged me a couple times over the past few months telling me about this girl he hangs out with all the time, but she wasn't exactly his type. But time flew, and now he tells me that he's falling in love with her.
Why am I so affected? Maybe because my feelings for him have not passed. Maybe I still love him. But it's been months, and I've fallen in love with another (see my October article). The only problem with the guy I'm falling in love with now is that he doesn't even know that I exist.
Going back to my ex-best friend, I really want to forget him and move on. But every time I tell myself that, he does something so unexpected, like text messaging me out of the blue. With that, I get back into this roller coaster, and I really want to get out of the roller coaster. But every time I try to get out, the seat belts automatically lock me in again. It's so weird. He doesn't know how much it hurts me every time he talks about this girl he's falling in love with.
Maybe I should really just let go. Maybe I should just forget about him. I have to stop hurting myself over him. He only thinks of me as a "friend". Nothing more than that. Maybe I should just treat him as a friend too. That way we would all be okay.
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