Child On Board
By Shanna, age 18, California
Sweet Designs Featured Writer
Motherhood is becoming more real to me every day. The fact that a little person is inside of me is one of the hardest things to adjust to mentally. Just think ... one second you're attempting to sleep, and then you realize lying on your back is one of the most uncomfortable things ever. It feels like someone jabbing their foot in the center of your back and pulling at your arms - it's really weird. The most comfortable position for me is on my side.
Never in my life did I ever think I would become pregnant. I'm kind of getting used to my baby pounding at my ribs and right under my belly button when I eat. It's funny actually to sit and watch your belly jump. Surprisingly, my boyfriend is loving every moment of it.
Today we found out the gender of our child - it's a girl. I cried and he jumped for joy. Boy, was I confused. As I gave a blank stare at the black and white image on the screen. I just thought, I knew it. So badly I'd hoped for a boy ... and I got the complete opposite. Then I realized she can be a Hello Kitty lover like myself, which isn't so bad.
It was a joyous occasion. My life is moving at a warp speed, and I'm trying to keep up. With a new engagement and a child on the way, I find myself becoming more of an adult than ever before. Still attending college on a daily basis and working at my job, the only thing changing is my growing tummy, causing me to move slower but work harder than before. People want me to do less, and I find it very boring. Everyone around me can lift a 5 lb. box, and as soon as I make an attempt, I am yelled at by anyone nearby. Hopefully, one day I'll get this thing called life right and to a point where I can understand every aspect of it.
